productive but stuck

I have been super productive over the last week or so.  I’ve been doing a lot of art (which is good as my personal time has gone from lots to nothing in a few days), and a lot of re-arranging.  If you’re in the area, you should come see my room.  While not spotless, I’m proud of its approachableness.

I made some more arm art this past weekend while attending a sort of get together for those not at burning man.  It was generally a good time and low key.  There has also been a lot of trash picking… which explains some of the painting… i’ve had an inflow of mass amounts of materials.  The funnest thing I have is a screen box, which I’m trying to decide what to do with.

The stuck part is the Fulbright.  Part of me wants to blaze ahead and finish the app and get myself in gear for the emotional roller coaster that is going to be.  Another part of me looks at my current job security and the amount of time I’m spending on this degree, and I wonder if my time wouldn’t be better spent getting the degree over with here at the Extension school as soon as possible, and using something like the Fulbright for a further research topic for a PhD program.  It would be exciting to be back in China, I just don’t want to coincide with the Olympics, and I don’t know how much I’d want to deal with subletting my space at the house and making sure that all worked out.

It’s a good debate going on in my head over all this stuff. Part of me likes the idea of working on the degree here while staying at work and being laid back and able to produce art.  The prospect of leaving the St. B’s community means that my life might open up a bit up here for singing, which would make me very happy (not that I have any leads on who to sing with… but since i have no time to put into it, it’s a moot point at the moment).

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